Last night, I finished Carol Shields’ The Stone Diaries. Overall, I really liked it. I mean, I wasn’t head over heels for it the whole time, although there were a few parts that I thought were extraordinarily touching and poignant, and I always wanted to start reading it again. It was one of those books that I would pick up and start reading, thinking that I was going to read one or two pages, but then end up reading twenty or thirty. So that is a good thing.
Perhaps the most striking thing about this novel to me was the abundance of terrible sex. Not terrible in the incestuous or rape variety, although I guess you could argue that it was abusive in a way, but just the complete lack of passion and enjoyment by the vast majority of the women described in this novel. I suppose I should not be too surprised. It was just sad, in general.
Did I ever tell you what this book was about? It’s about a woman. Her entire life. From her birth to her death. And of course, other people’s stories are interwoven into her own–creating this huge web of family history and experience. I find myself very fascinated with “ordinary” lives, so this book was right up my alley. To me, ordinary people’s lives are all about being human. We are one in our humanness.
Anyway, there’s something else I wanted to talk about briefly, something I haven’t ever written about before, but I think about often, and that is the moment after you finish a book. For me, it is such a strange moment. You’ve just finished taking this long journey, which often lasts days if not weeks, with a whole set of new characters who you often feel empathy for, excitement with. And then it’s over, there is no more nagging obligation to pick up the worn cover and keep reading, and the book is closed, and you lie there on your bed, the book lying flat on your stomach, and stare at the ceiling for a minute. You are reading and then you are not. It is just a second, just a moment, and yet it is something more. And maybe you immediately get up and wring more information about the book out of google, or maybe you just sit there and stare, and it is quiet and there is a pause as your attention drifts from the people you’ve been thinking about so much for days back to your own life, on your own bed, in your own house, in your own place and time. A breath before you walk to your bookshelf and pick out something else.